I've been listening to this one song, Imagine, the APC cover of the John Lennon song, over, and over, and over. It really makes me think. Why do we fret over the small things nowadays? Take me for example. I'm a designer brand clothing freak, and I'm always wanting that pair of Diesel Jeans, or that Ralph Lauren Polo or something, when I should be doing something more productive with my time, right? It bugs me how, unaware myself, and a lot of other people are. I mean, theres so much going on in the world, and I don't have an inkling as to what that stuff is, I don't know what I can do to help, to help spread awareness, to do anything. Its like I'm just going to sit around here and work for school, get good grades, be respectful to my parents, and be a good friend. I'm so weird, I mean on one hand I want to help all those poor kids that live in the poor parts of Africa, where they have terrible lives and are fighting to survive, on the other I think shit like, they'res not enough people dying, earth is getting overpopulated, and then i go into like, pure oblivion and I am annoyed by the little things, like not enough freedom, or not being able to hang out with friends, or I'm just not satisfied. It bites at my conscience... Sometimes, I think about life and how messed up it is too much, and I feel like not ever growing up and just dying... There's so much going wrong, what is really going right? What am I supposed to think? Live life to the fullest knowing that people are dying all over the world, dying to have the life I have, when I don't deserve everything I have, or should I mope about how messed up life is, when I have so much to be grateful for? Should I be my hyper self? Or should I be my "dark" depressed self? Who am I? And really, what is my purpose? What are all of us here for? We all started off as little itty bitty organisms, and over lots of time, we became the materialistic, greedy humans that we are. What is going to happen when we all die? What will happen when all life dies? Will it all start again? Will we have to wait for millions and billions of years for micro organisms to evolve into some sort of living creature like us? Something that communicates with others of its type, which thinks too much about itself and its tiny world around it? That is materialistic and doesn't know how much is going on in the world? Something that destroys its environment, that takes advantage of others, that uses more than enough energy, that takes up too much space, that knows that its ruining the Earth, but still does it anyway? Sad to say, I'm one of them... Then again, isn't every human being?


You may say I'm a dreamer... But I'm not the only one... I hope someday you'll join us... And the world will live as one